PDay #2

 12/4/2024

Heyoooo!!!

There is so much to tell and you guys!! I don't even know where to start.

It is still hard adjusting to not being around family and having to have a super busy schedule!! I've had moments where I just start crying and can't stop. But I've had some good moments which I'm holding dear to my heart. But let me start from the beginning   

Sunday was good we had a good sacrament meeting with wonderful talk and testimonies. Then after, we had the opportunity to go and study for like 2 hours which if you know me I cannot concentrate even for 10 mins  and I have no clue what I even was reading but I prayed and and decided to read talks from past general conferences which was super good and I loved every bit of it even tho I didn't get a lot done cause I got distracted a lot hahaha. But it was a wonderful study session and I definitely felt the spirit with me. After we had a gathering with our district which was super wonderful and we kinda opened up a little bit about some stuff which was sweet and very spiritual. Overall it was a good Sunday. 

Monday-Wednesday 

Didn't sleep that well. Haven't been sleeping well getting about 3-4 hours of sleep. Not the best but what can i do 

Monday was a but hard cause I still wasn't getting the principals of the gospel and understanding what I'm reading. But I'm doing my best that I can to understand it. I just feel like the other missionaries in my district make it look easy to understand cause they can just grasp onto it super well while I just feel like I'm not getting anything and that's been going on for a while. My companion tho has been super helpful and has been super patient with me which I'm super grateful and blessed to have him me my companion during this struggling time here at the MTC. 

Tuesday:

Nothing much else really happened just the same old same old stuff. Wake up, study, breakfast, workshop, class, lunch and then class again then bed. Nothing super exciting happened. Wait actually we had a great devotional and had the relief society president talk to us. It was super good and got a lot out of it then talked eith the ditrstict on what we thought was important to us. 

Wednesday:

We were able to go to the temple and go to an endowment which I really needed cause man I have not been mentally okay. My anxiety and mental has taken a toll. When people talk about home sickness and separation anxiety ect. It's real!!! I haven't felt like this in a while! But after the temple trip and feeling the spirit it helped me in ways. And sometimes I widh I can just stay in there forever and not go out into the world  other then that it was a decent day

Thursday:

Thanakgiving!!!!! I honestly didn't enjoy it. Don't get me wrong I love the holidays but I didn't not like the food, not being with family, I just was not a good day. We did a service project and we actually listened to Chistmas music which made my day a little but better. But we had a service project where we made soms oatmeal bags for a humaninitarian stuff. It was really nice and I love helping people and making them feel loved. We also had a general authority talk to us as well and man I was excited for that and when he waved at me (Quentin L. Cook) I felt like I was going to pass out. He talked about our purpose as missionaries which is what i needed to hear. The night went well. Couldn't sleep still cause i kept waking up crying and anxiety still but we are still pushing though

Friday: 

We went to the temple again but this time to help those who have passed to be to be sealed for all time and eternity. It was super great but so long and I actually fell asleep  felt the spirit tho. But before that I wasn't feeling well. I don't know what it was but like my mood just changed like I was just not having it. But I was super blessed to be able find a song that has helped me today and for the next couple of days. If you haven't already you guys need to listen to I Need Thee Every Hour but the new rendition of it. You can find it on the Church website. It's super good. It has helped me to view things in a different perspective and has helped me mentally. But Friday was a good day and I have been feeling better and class was amazing. I was able to actually feel smart and actually know what to do. We had a topic about like Asking questions and just wanting to care and converse woth people. So our teacher gave us some scenarios and man did I crush it hahaha. I'm good at talking and listening to people and that is one of my strengths. 

Saturday:

Pday today. Had class today but was a good class. Then just rested and relaxed. Played some volleyball and talked to my parents which was super helpful and amazing. Played a game with my district. It was an interesting game and fun to play. It was like a drawing game. I don't really know. Then went back to the dorms and finally finishing this email hahaha. Sorry it's super long and hard to understand. Still trying to work on my grammar lol. But the night was great and very well ending. Had a wonderful co verstaion with a super great friend and so glad to have met them and can't wait for us to both strive and see where we go in life as missionaries and adults. 

Anyways it's getting late here and I need to sleep. But one thing I would like to say is that God's knows who we are and knows our struggles. He may not give us those but he will give us the strengths to overcome those struggles. We gotta have faith to be able to have his help and pray to him with love and care. He wants us to talk to him and have a relationship woth him. Anyways I love you guys and I can't wait to leave next Wed for NYC. That's right my time at the MTC is coming to an end. NYC, watch out cause elder Valdez is coming.  until next time.